by: Ye Dig

The best way to communicate between friends, to TALK about what is on one's mind, seems to be the conclusion of these two and any other, many other more serious matters. These in particular didn't only result in long talks but also in an eternal friendship. I'm not trying to "...Give (You) Something to Talk About..." but rather to connect with, open eyes wide to, vibe with, say "aha!" to, and maybe even learn from. Nothing beats a conversation in the company of a good friend. Ye dig?

Sista #1

Poetry/Journal entry

05.25.99

10.25 p.m.

Seasons

Sang to her by him
but I constantly find myself
calling you back...
You've played it before!
the boyfriend you say
...to talk it out
but it works me in that:
you don't even tell me you like him
anymore
And I pray that this season's changes are as beautiful,
as healthy,
as real
that others may have weak needs
week or wicked needs-
slowly kills me when I should understand
their needs

I'm just jealous.

Never understood when she said
ALL to herself
but she's right, it hurts
And in the background,
she laughs...
...like the season changed your mind
but she's only just as lonely as
me.
"Saddenly" it feels so good to have
these stormy seasons
and rainy moments
So he's not the answer you see
Like today, I'm counting days
"You-be-for-tea?"
Always, "No," you'd say
and we agree
especially chocolate will do,

and maybe a talk with you?
Like when we didn't have to think
but in peaceful flows
In past seas...
...on and on.

Sista #2

From: [Name]@hotmail.com

To: [Name]@hotmail.com

Subject: a bone to pick...

Date: Sat, 15 Dec 2001 22.33.20-0700

or maybe a few!

andegna...- is your insensitivity.... I don't mind late night calls...in fact, sometimes they're the best. But last night, it wasn't cool that you called me and talked for hours after not calling for soooo long. In fact, I was soooo happy to hear from you that I didn't even care that I had to wake up so damn early for work! It ain't cool that you don't call me all day (and I can't get a hold of you.... although I try), but then you call in the wee hours of the morning to "make up" for not calling.

huletegna...- is your hibernation issue... I don't know why you are avoiding me...if that's the way to put it...but I thought it was all cool when you would say..."I got to stuuudy..." in fact, I made a big joke out of it to not feel bad that I can't get a few minutes out of your "study time." But what's the reason now that school is out???

sostegna...-is [M-Name] issue...You painfully (and unfairly) pointed out that I seem to be less than interested in the things that you have to tell me about him...but the truth of the matter is...is that I am jealous. BUT...it has nothing to do with liking him, or wanting to spend time (even if it is not physically) with him...the thing is...no matter how much studying you have to do or whatever...you manage to call him on [name's] cell phone or do whatever to talk to him. Man, you called me ONCE this past semester.... and even when I called you to talk or whatever...it was never a good time or a good...anything! No convo...no vibing...no nothing! And I knew that you felt that for him (the vibes, etc.)...and that made me sooo mad! [Name], I am still hurt about your negativo energies that I get...I mean (for lack of an example)...on my birthday, you really dissed me...(and thoughts of how creative and excited you got for [M-Name] killed me mooooore!) and I didn't realize how stuck on that I am until the other day when I was talking to [F-Name] about her birthday coming up.... and then again, when I was talking to [F-Name] (complaining about how much I missed you).... and well, I am glad you found your hubby but daaaaang...what does that mean??? Naturally more time and energy goes that way...but does that mean when times get rough (or not so rough but frustrating and tiresome)...all energy goes that way?.....oof! Does that even make sense???? Well, let me move on from that touchy subject without saying too much[---yeah right...too late -huh- (but hopefully enough.)

aratena- I never imagined that I would try to find you in someone else...but I found myself literally trying to drag a [Name=You] out of [F-Name]...but that can't happen...and in the process [F-Name] and I have become soooo close and I am sooooo happy that she is (and was) there for me when I soooo desperately couldn't find you! She was there...to give me the eight hour talks that you and I used to have so long ago...and oof...I aint gonna lie...I wish she was here so that I wouldn't be soo bitter towards you (as I sound in this email.) Maybe if she was here...I wouldn't feel so alone.... I don't know if that's the right word to use!

finally~ I am sooooo very grateful that you were there for Pops when he needed it...I even found myself getting a little jealous as he told someone on the phone that I was in [City], but his other daughter was taking care of him (didn't even say it jokingly...he literally had the man thinking he had two daughters.) And then my mom told me to be thankful for you and then I told myself to be thankful.... and then I found myself just angry. Not at you...not at anyone...but at myself...and then I called [Name] to explain my anger...not you...and for another thing I called [Name] before I thought to call you and that's when I realized.... YOU and I got issues.... or maybe I got the issues.... but since right now you are with [F-Name], haven't called me all day, and left the house when I was on the phone saying hi to [F-Name] (but calling for you)...I figured...let me let her know the infamous way.....the most intimate way we communicate these days..........THE INTERNET!!!!!!!

I could go on and on...but it'd probably do no good...and besides, my mom is waiting for me to do her hair...

peace